Silence

Perfect I am not. I am but a broken and fragmented shell of a human being. Like the shore, waves have carried out so much of me, out to the depths of the sea. I am empty, stripped, naked, fractured, and left for dead. Where O Lord have you gone, why have you turned your face from me? I feel cold, as though I am ready to breathe my last. Why has Your voice gone silent? I stand here weeping, where have you gone? I am a soldier in a desert, a knight in the shadow of death. Turn back to your child, wrap your arms around me like you have done in my most broken times. I am a warrior without an army. Why do I feel so alone? I am in a valley and the bitter cold of night has settled in around me. All has turned to darkness around me. But Lord, there is this small fire within me that will not be extinguished. A triumphant cadence that will not be suppressed. My heart beats with the fury of the drums of every tribe from every corner of this earth. I will not go quietly and I will not back down. I pray that I might be filled by the Holy Spirit, that my armor would be strong, my blade sharp, and my spirit ready. I will dance before the King, and let my heart be known. Satan will not triumph, he is a defeated enemy, and my battles will heap burning coals in his eyes. I was made for war. I was made for battle. I am a weapon for righteousness. A vessel of redemption. Set apart by the creator of this universe. Taking back the ground that the enemy has taken for centuries. Let my voice be loud, let it ring from the very bottom of my heart. Salvation will reign in my life. I will proclaim God's song of redemption from the heights of the mountains. Let your light shine in me.

“They impose the endless fight, to always be perfect. It seems they have been chosen to be above the rest. But the contradiction stands, between these perfect lives, and the words that they misread... There was no reading.”

-Sleeping at Last “Say”